I had a very weird dream last night. It was about September 11th, and the airplanes. First off, let me give you some history. I am a Californian, born and raised. I went to NY to live with my aunt, when I was 18. I was living with her and going to school when 9/11 happend. I was also working as a secretary. I have since moved back to Fresno, and that is where I am now. I was there when it happend. I was working about 6 blocks away from the towers. I still remember my friend coming in and shouting at us that we needed to get out quickly, becuase the towers had just been bombed. I remember seeing people running for their lives. I remember hearing so many poeple saying "My baby is in there." I remember people coming up to you asking if you had a cell phone they could use. I remember people just standing in awe of the whole situation.

Even though I was there, I was *lucky* enough not to have seen the planes enter the buildings. I worked on the 18th floor of a building, and while my back was turned that is when the plane hit. I didnt see it, but last night, I dreamed that I did. Now, this is my dream. I dreamed that I saw the plane enter the building. I dreamed that my boyfriend, whom I wasn't even with at the time, was there with me, and he had to help save the people. I woke up in a cold sweat. During my dream, I was trying to call on my cell phone to let someone, anyone know that I was okay, and I couldn't get a signal. I couldnt get ahold of anyone, and I was alone. I woke up to that feeling again. I woke up to the feeling of "Oh my God, what has happend." I hated that feeling.

Then, as I check my email this morning, I get an annonymous email with this in it. I don't really know what to say. Coincidence? I don't know. I do, however, think it is a great idea as long as they stay vacant like that, and don't get a whole bunch of bulidings on them. Leave it as a memorial. No matter where you were in Manhattan, you could look up and see the towers and know exactly where you were. This is an awesome idea, and I think they should really consider it! I haven't had a dream like that in a really long time. There were nights where I couldn't sleep because of what happend, but that was a long time ago. Last night really shook me up. My boyfriend is at work. He left at 6 this morning. I'm scared again, and it really sucks, because I haven't felt like this in a while. I just remember feeling like I needed to call people and let them know what was going on. I saw the plane, in my dream, and people running. It was scary..and I hate that.

I took another test today in my class. It's actually kind of nice because I don't have to stress to much about school during the summer. I want to get done as soon as possible, so I'm taking classes during the summer, otherwise, I would be enjoying it! I knew all the answers to the questions except for one. Everytime I take the tests there is always JUST one question which puzzles me. I hate that! I think I may have gotten a 99%, unless of course, I managed to guess right on the one question...then it will be 100% baby!!

My love is back, and he has been spending the whole day at my house. It's funny, he spends more time with me at my house, than I do at his. When he gets home at 6am, he comes over, and climbs into bed with me (he has a key!). It's nice because hes there, and climbs into bed with his uniform on, VERY sexy! Then, when Im at school, he usually sleeps. I get home at about 12pm, and thats when he wakes up. Today after class we went to the zoo. I haven't been to the zoo in YEARS! I love the zoo, its just gotten so expensive, that it isn't really worth going. We took my niece who is almost 2 years old. She's about 20 months or so. In October she will be 2! She was so cute. She talks in sentences, which is very unusual for a child of her age. She is really incredibly smart, and the best part, was seeing both Anthony and Jordy together. It was amazing. Kind of made me wish I had a kid. One day I will. He will make a wonderful Dad:) He's a very caring guy, and the way he talked to her today was really cool. Even though shes only 20 months, he got down to her level to talk to her. It was very neat!

When we got home, I was tired. It's amazing how much the heat can knock you out. It's about 105 here today. We decided it will be pizza for dinner tonight. Most likely Me-n-Ed's. Then after he has a belly full of pizza, I will finally get to spend some time with him, just me and him. He always makes me feel so good when we are together:) Yeah, I love him!

Enough of the sappy crap huh??? Here is something kind of funny that I ran onto. I thought it was quite interesting and thought you all might get a kick out of it too! Waste Some Time. Why dont you go ahead and waste some time!! Perfect when your at work, and there is nothing to do! Or you can pass the time by going to Oh, I'm So Bored!. Now, see, you can't say your bored, because only boring people get bored. Yeah, uhh huh! Enjoy!!

My plans certainly did change tonight. Not exactly for the better either! My love got called to the fire station to fill in for someone who wasn't able to come in and do his shift. Kind of makes for a lonely night. At least he is only going to have to be away for tonight, and then I'll still get him tomorrow night. We have been together for about 3 months, but we have known each other for about 4 years. I met him at a party Lauren and Todd were throwing. It was their house-warming party. I walked in, and saw Anthony standing by Todd. I had known Todd for a while, but never met Anthony. Anthony saw me, and we looked at each other, and he looked away. I went into out onto the patio, and I heard Anthony ask "Who was that girl?" Todd told him who I was, and he said "I have got to meet her." Todd said he had someone he wanted me to meet, so I walked over to him. I was wearing a black dress with strappy stilletos, my long straight hair down my back, and simple gold necklace. I looked pretty good. He introduced us, and Anthony took my hand and said "Nice to meet you, Amanda." It was neat because no one had ever said my name like he did. He said it with meaning...it made my stomach flip flop when he said it. We chatted a bit, but I had to leave because I had work in the morning. I heard from Todd the next morning that he was looking for me after I left, and was asking everyone "Where did the beautiful girl with the lovely smile go?" Nice huh??:) He was in a bad relationship, and I was moving away when we met. I was going to live with my "aunt" in New York, after dealing with a life full of problems at home. I was 18 and he was 21. He broke up with his girlfriend two weeks after we met 4 years ago, and had been single the whole time I was away. He told me when we got together "I didn't want to waste my time with other girls, because I knew I had found the girl I was meant to be with. No one can compare to you, your the best, and your perfect for me." He said it was love at first sight. I liked him too, but I was trying to get my life together after a bad breakup, and didn't want any relationship. We went out on a few dates, but nothing major.

Then, when I came back to go to school here, we met up again. I had been back a few times for a few months at a time, but this time I was back to stay. His brother, Todd, was in the hospital after a car accident, and I am Todd's Fiancee's, Lauren's, best friend. One day while I was at the hospital with Lauren, Anthony was there. He looked at me like he had seen a ghost. He couldn't believe that I was standing there. His mouth literally dropped, and he stood up. He said "Oh My God. Amanda, its you." I knew instantly then, that we were meant to be together. When I saw him, my heart felt like it had relaxed and I was happy. He is a sexy guy too, very nice looking! He is about 6'1", 185 pounds (all muscle) dark brown hair, dark eyes, long eyelashes (hes Italian too!) He could have any girl in the whole world, but yet he has chosen to be with me. That's an amazing thing when you think about it. I was chosen out of so many people.

Since that day we saw each other at the hospital we have been together. We went out that night to a VERY nice restaurant. Vestucios. I must say it was the nicest I had ever been to. It's the kind where they sit you down, and put the napkin in your lap for you. They call you ma'am, and sir, and the wine is like $10.00 a glass. He spent A LOT of money that night, but he still to this day, says he didn't care because spending the meal with me was worth it ::blush::. What a great guy huh? Since then, the only time we have been apart is when he is at work, or I am in my classes. Its funny, I lived in NY, and when I was gone to NY, I thought about him alot. We talked on the phone a few times. Mostly it was when Lauren called me and Anthony was visiting Todd and she'd put him on the phone. Nothing was ever said about how much he liked me. I learned later, from Lauren, that he told her "We will be together forever one day, I can feel it in my soul." I dated other guys when I was in NY, and even after I came back home, but nothing ever clicked. It was because I knew my heart belonged to Anthony. My only regret about the whole thing is that I didn't get to see him at his academy graduation two years ago. I wanted to go, but I had other things going on, and wasn't able to fly back in time. I wish I could have been there cheering him on and letting him know how proud I am of him. I know he knows I'm proud of him. I tell him every time he puts on his uniform. He saves lives every day. What a great guy! Hes amazing...and never ceases to make my heart skip a beat everytime I see him walk through the door. I am worried when he's gone, but I know he will stay safe for me. I knew, from the beginning we were destined to be together, and each day, that becomes more and more clear to me. I love it when Im somewhere, and I turn to hear a fire truck. I look inside, and he's sitting there waiving at me. It's the best feeling in the world! When he introduced me to the guys at the station, one said "Man, you've got yourself a babe there. Keep that one!" Awesome!

So, even though I can't have some wild, hot fireman booty tonight, I can take comfort in the fact that my heart is finally, and utterly well taken care of, and will be...forever. Not only does my man save lives but he rescued this hurt heart and has and always will keep it beating. I feel safe in his arms, and I've never felt that way before. This is real, and I know it, and God, I miss him. <3

Today was a pretty good day, (even though I know it's not over yet.) I got my test back and scored an awesome 98% (I missed two questions out of 100) and I watched Office Space with my boyfriend, who by the way is a FIREMAN! Yeah, I just thought I would throw that in for good measure:) He is home today after being gone for a whole 24 hours. He works a 24 on 48 off schedule, so that means I get him for a whole 2 days before he has to back and be the hero again. Although, he is always a hero to me:) I will be getting some pictures posted soon of us for all you people out there who LOVE to see pictures:)

I know the movie is an old one, but it is always good to watch movies over and over, especially good ones like Office Space! Yes, I do subscribe to netflix and let me tell you, it's so much nicer than blockbuster!! No late fees, so that means if I can't get the movie in by 12:00pm then I won't be charged an extra gazillion dollars because I turned it in at 12:02pm! That and I can keep the movies as long as I want. Although I never keep them long. If haven't watched the movie in a week, I return it, because it means I probably wont watch it at all:)

I really need to clean, but I don't really like cleaning. At least my own stuff. I love the smell of cleaning supplies like soap and detergent. My room is a mess! How am I supposed to get any booty tonight with my room a mess? Humm..maybe I should go ahead and clean it. Then again, we don't actually need the bed >:) I want some hot fireman ass tonight!!:) Yeah, I think I will do that. Until I get back, here is something to tide all my lovely readers over! fark.com If you're lucky, you just might find some BOOBIES!!

Well today was a rather boring day. I went to class, which is always rather boring, then came home, went to dinner, and put some more things on ebay. Don't you love boring days? I guess the highlight of my day was to find out that my cell phone bill was in the upwards of $2000.00. Yep...I have no clue how I'm going to pay that one off. I guess I call people from home way too much. They will most likely cut off my phone. I will have to make payments. Oh well, live and learn, (then get luvs..haha:))

I have added a few more blogs to the side. As soon as I find some that actually make sense and can make me laugh, I will be posting more. So many blogs are technical, and all about stuff that no one gets..at least I don't get:) I am interested in funny stuff, because God, life is way too serious sometimes, and we all need a good laugh now and again!!

I was on wilwheaton.net today and I found this little discussion. Thought it was rather interesting. What would you want on your Epitaph. I already posted mine on the comments section but mine would read "I Poke Badgers With Spoons." Yep, that would be what I want to be seen for hundreds and hundreds of years. People will scratch their heads and say "Uhh..Okay." I love it!

Now, though, I must make one thing clear. I may go to Wil Wheaton.net every once in a while, however, I am not, nor have I ever been, a fan of Star Trek, Star Wars, or anything remotely resembling the two. Not that I think you shouldn't be, its fine if you are, but I cannot get into that stuff. I stumbled onto it one day, and hes a great person who writes great things, and I like it:) Sounds good? Yes! Good! Off to bedie-bye with me..Im one tuckerd out chick. Having nothing to do can make me PRETTY DARN tired! Nighty-Night!

Here is a link I saw today and it made me laugh! Its funny, and gross at the same time! Hours of fun enteratainment. Gather the whole family 'round the old 'puter and have a gander! Pluck Me Baby!

On another lighter note, I have listed some more stuff for sale on ebay! Yes, I sell on ebay! Here are my auctions. My Auctions On Ebay.Feel free to bid as high as you want on my items. I need the money. Im a college student living on Ramen noodles, and washing my clothes in the bathtub to save me money. In fact, Im going to Dollar Tree today to get detergent, and hoping my car can make it to my parents house three hours away on a 1/2 tank of gas so I can hopefully use their machine. Cross your fingers everyone!!

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